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musicaljourneyproject:

Name: Vanessa Francis
Age: 20.8

It all began when: [woo this is a long one] like most people my age the early stuff was an amalgamation of mid to late 90’s pop: nsync, spice girls, britney spears…the list goes on. Besides that, I grew up on reggae and old school dance hall. from about 4th grade through jr h.s it was mostly a mixture of popular reggae and hip hop. Following my brother I ended up having some of the nu-metal from that time thrown into the fray. When I hung out with him we were listening to bands like linkin park, disturbed, p.o.d, korn, ill nino stuff like that. We were also listening to some hard rock that was popular at the time like puddle of mudd and system of a down. when I was around 13 are started to explore music on my own. This is when I got in to the alternative and pop rock scene, I was listening to fall out boy, simple plan, all of that cheesy stuff I dont even feel like remembering right now lolz. My freshman and sophmore year was mostly me exploring older stuff. I was still listing to the popular alternative songs of the time but i managed to really get into 90’s grunge and ska. [still a huge fan of bands like nirvana, soundgarden and 311] after that i was listening to old stuff from bands like metallica, and iron maiden, and then I made my way over to 80’s hair metal. I got stuck on bands like white snake, quiet riot, def leppard, motley crue, and guns n roses. through my jr year i made back to current music. I was wading deeper into metal and goth rock. I had a deeeeep metalcore phase and was listening to as i lay dying, all that remains, august burns red, trivium and killswitch engage. After that I moved towards thrash/ heavy metal. I was listening to machine head, more trivium, devildriver, fear factory, and soulfly. This continued on until about midway through my senior year. Oddly enough I completey switched gears and started listening [well i did before, but this is where it got serious] to techno/ EDM. It started with Basshunter [wait it really didnt I listened to fatboy slim, and daft punk yeeaarsss before] and i hooked. for the rest of my senior year I was listening to mostly euro trance, and 90’s dance. Through the summer I encountered hardstyle and happy hardcore. Even now I’m still exploring EDM [i’ve become a raver] and i’ve settled in liquid dubstep. Aside from that, during the past two years I’ve fallen in love with progressive metal. I’ve been listening to periphery, sylosis, tesseract and the like. I’ve also began to enjoy sludge metal/stoner rock. i am absolutely in love w/ mastodon [have you seen their album covers???] red fang, meshuggah, and baroness. And yeah thats where i am now, liquid dubstep and prog metal mostly ^.^

so Moe’s working on a project and it’s pretty cool, this s my musical journey and it’d be great if you guys could submit yours too!

spread it around, there’s an fb for it too:https://www.facebook.com/MusicalJourneyProject

I havent really been speaking for myself here

But after a conversation I had recently,I just really feel the need to do this. More so to order my thoughts than to offer anyone an explanation.

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the early blogging days

me and sill are laughing at our myspaces

i somehow managed to remember the login and got in

Some fancy about me thing:

LAYER ONE: THE OUTSIDE
- Name: Vanessa
- Eye Color: Brown.
- Hair Style/Color:  black, goes a little passed my shoulders, i have the worse hairline known to man so i stay away from pulling my hair back like ever. So i almost always have it down with a side part
- Height: 5’3 and a half
- Clothing style: it varies, i usually wear a lot of black, i’ve kind of stopped caring really? so i dress mostly for comfort, i’m perpetually in skinny jeans converse and tees but i reaaallly like wearing tunics/long tees and leggings. when I actually try to look nice i look like your average goth i guess
- Best physical feature: tits honestly

LAYER TWO: THE INSIDE
- Your fears: being alone
- Your guilty pleasure(s): i dont really have any
- Ambitions for the future: owning my own residence, and opening up a cafe

LAYER THREE: THOUGHTS
- Your first thoughts waking up:  hopefully today goes well
- What you think about most: sex and the future
- What you think about before bed: ^^
- You think your best quality is: loyalty probably

LAYER FOUR: WHAT’S BETTER?
- Single or group dates: group
- To be loved or respected: Respected.
- Beauty or brains: Brains.
- Dogs or cats: dogs

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
- Lie: rarely
- Believe in yourself: most of the time
- Believe in love: yep
- Want someone: in general yes, a specific person no

LAYER SIX: EVER?
- Been on stage: yep
- Done drugs: like twice
- Changed who you were to fit in: never. 

LAYER SEVEN: FAVORITES
- Favorite color: green
- Favorite animal: dogs, 
- Favorite movie: harry potter and the prisoner of azkaban
- Favorite game: btw pokemon crystal and skyrim

LAYER EIGHT: AGE

- Day your next birthday will be: August 4th
- How old will you be: 21 [woooooo]
- Age you lost your virginity: 17
- Does age matter: Not where consenting adults are concerned.

LAYER NINE: IN A BOY OR GIRL
- Best personality: i like someone who is just as chill as I am, and is open about stuff and has a good head on their shoulders. the kind of person that levels out my wackiness
- Best eye color: green.
- Best hair color: Idon’t really care.
- Best thing to do with a partner: fucking of course

LAYER TEN: FINISH THE SENTENCE
- I love: drarry fics?
- I feel: apathetic at the moment.
- I hide: nothing at all.
- I miss: them.
- I wish: i had money/ a job.

I’ve come to the point where I realized that every thought/idea and thing that I do has no importance or significance to anyone other than myself

Hell, I’ve realized that for a while now.

And like, it’s not I ever thought I was the center of the world. And for the most part I would say I live for myself.

But still, realizing that no one gives a shit is a little bit weird. Earth shattering really.

No one gives even the slightest of fucks and I’ve been having the hardest time dealing with that revelation.

I know the universe is huge and what not…but knowing that you as insignificant as one ass hair on the grodiest hermit in the most remote place in the world hurts a little bit

I SWEAR I ALWAYS HAVE TO DEAL WITH THE SUSSEST OF PEOPLE

MY GOD

WHEN WILL IT STOP?

WHEN???

fucking shit man. I am not going to rip your throat out if you dont want to talk to me

wow the hoops people jump through in order to keep up guises and false pretenses. what does it take for people to understand that i respect truth tellers, i’m far from irrational. i’d prefer for it to be known if things cant be dealt w/ instead of attempting to placate me with falsities. There is no need to bullshit me, i find this kind of shit so disrespectful and it drives me crazy.

is it bad that i love my name because it’s racially ambiguous?

always have, even when i was little

i remember the dirty looks on my teachers faces when they tried to pronounce other kids names, and i was was just thankful that they didnt screw their faces up all ugly and butcher my name during attendance *shrugs*

and idk but i’ve avoided putting my last name on here for some reason? i just feel apprehensive about putting the entire thing out here. iunno but it’s pretty plain. like very

yeeppppp

so i’ll be in jamaica by the weekend

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so…

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wow

so i just got a call that my grandfather died.

I don’t know how to feel about it. He was 103, had prostate cancer and has been senile for a good 5 years and pretty much deaf for more than a decade. And I only met him like 3 times, but now i feel like the biggest of turds because i didnt go w/ my parents to jamaica and i didnt see him before he died

the fuck even?

what am i doing?

this is how i get into trouble.

stupid ideas are forming

stupid stupid stupid

i feel like a pretentious twat

final essay for my english class is supposed to be about a ‘product of culture’ so we have to dissect a specific art piece of some kind (film, dance, music, theatre w/e) and i figured it would be best to go with music

and he makes us write proposals before the essay for last minute guidance, but bluh, I ended up going on a tangent about all the ~ obscure super cool sub-genres I liked~ and I was basically all ~woe is me, I’m so cultured, look at all of these things that I like that you’ve probably never heard of~ ~gosh I’m so cool idk which one to choooose!~

great

more blatant reminders that i walk my path alone.

im just tired. i really am. i have so much faith in people, and i keep expecting the people that matter to me to help hold me up

and i keep getting straight shat on

no one is here

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OH MY FUCKING GOD

nooooooooooo

we’re not doing this again

no no no no no